I Hate This Feeling

I really hate the feeling I have lately. I will elaborate.

I have applied for a position that would be perfect for me with my insurance and employee benefits backgroud. I am already familiar with this particular employer's benefits as they are a current client of the company I used to work for. I would basically be doing the same job I did at my former employer except I would be only working for this one employer instead of performing benefit related tasks for over 100 clients. I already have had a couple of people put in a good word for me and one person from my former employer is going to be attending a meeting there on Tuesday and is going to drop my name to them as well as mention that I have already dropped off my resume and letter of interest. Since I had the inside scoop on the open position I knew about it before it was posted and I had my information there first thing the morning after the evening it posted.

If we weren't in the middle of a big fat recession and the job market wasn't flooded with tons of qualified people looking for positions exactly like this one my confidence would be significantly higher than it is right now. I do believe that I will land an inverview based on my 6 years of experience, the fact that I am a licensed Life, Accident and Sickness agent and especially because they are coming up on their open enrollment and want someone in the vacant position FAST and I have some actual experience working on their account BUT am not as confident that I will actually land this oh so good to be true postion! Whoa...that was a long sentance...run on and on!!!

I have only been on three interviews in my live and only had those three jobs...so far I have been lucky I guess. I just feel so nervous and sick about this! Could things possibly work out this perfectly for me? This position coming available right around the same time my MIL is completing her chemo...thus making it possible for me to work again???? I lost my job just before she started chemo and now I have an opportunity to get this job just before her chemo ends....maybe this is God's plan....if not I will soon discover what is.

The deadline for applicants is August 3rd and I don't know if they are going to wait until then to start the process or if they are going to contact people along and along. I hope I hear something sooner rather than later!!!!