I Hate To See It Go

I am kind of sad to see my Sweet Summertime slip away!!!! I have never really been a fan of summer...basically because I sweat like a man if the temperature exceeds 73.2 degrees, I am unbelievably fair skinned so avoiding the sun has always been easier than worrying with sunscreen every day of my life and I just HATE to be hot!!! When I am hot I am instantly turned into a different person and it ain't pleasant!!!! My husband has grown to understand my alternate not so pleasant personality and he does try to do everything he can to keep the other less pleasant me from surfacing...like going outside before I do to start the car so that I don't have to get into the 400 degree oven for instance.

This summer was different in many wonderful ways. I have been home since mid March and it has kind of felt like the summers of old when I just got to bum around and set my own schedule. Since I have gotten older I would often think back to those magical summers and would wish I could have just one more day of that happiness and freedom...the happiness and freedom I didn't even know I was enjoying at the time. This summer wasn't exactly like that but it was very close and I have really enjoyed it!!!!

When I was working I would stare out my office window sometimes and wish like crazy I was at home with my children or just outside letting the sun bathe my face...anywhere doing anything but being where I was. With the job I had you were always looking ahead...often working on projects for one, two or three months away....it kind of felt like you lived in the future and your life would fly by! Summer would fade into fall, before you knew it Christmas was gone and often spring was a blur. Deadline after deadline after deadline...never ending stress and pressure that seemed to compress you from every angle. It was very bad!!!!

I am so very glad I do not have that constant, toxic stress in my life anymore. I often tell people that I still have stress but it isn't in the same league at all. Having my house constantly be a wreck, having Samuel pee on my bed 3 times on 3 consecutive days, having a dog that is getting older and more annoying by the day, having a husband that is anal about EVERYTHING, having the bossiest person I have ever met as my 4 year old daughter, having a very infuriatingly gullible mother in law who must be blind to put up with what she does and having a mother who is the most pessimistic person in the world is quite stressful BUT.....the green toxic stress is gone. I hope the Lord directs me to a job that I enjoy and that I can leave at work when I leave for the day. I want to contribute, help others and hopefully make a difference but I don't want a career that totally defines who I am or takes over valuable time and energy that I want to devote to my family.

I am so very thankful for all of the blessings in my life and the time I have had lately to enjoy my family and my life. This summer has been sweet and I will always be able to look back and remember this wonderful time. Wealth has absolutely NOTHING to do with money and I am rich. My cup runneth over!