Does it kind of scare you when you are quite used to a steady rocking motion in your life and the waters suddenly calm to be as smooth as glass? Am I a weirdo or have I just adapted to draw comfort from that steady rocking in my life? I can safely say that up until this point in my life I have never experienced any major storms but those steady waves have gotten a little choppy from time to time...nothing I couldn't handle with God's help but now it is VERY calm....happy...fullfilled....good. I feel that I am doing what I should be doing. I feel like I am a stay at home mom who works a little.
I get enormous satisfaction from being able to devote more time to my children than I did before losing my job in March and being able to earn money for our family again makes me feel good as well. I am truly blessed and I think I can definitely get used to the calm waters but it is a little unnerving because it is just different....IN A GREAT WAY!!!
I am thrilled for you that your waters are calm these days, but you are certainly not the only person who secretly braces themselves for a big storm when life seems to be going smoothly! I think it's just human nature!
ReplyDeleteIt must be human nature, because I am that way too. If things are going too well, I get anxious, like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.
ReplyDeleteI think we all do it, we are female and worry even when things are going smoothly. I am so happy for you that things are working out so well......you deserve it!!
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