If I had to describe 2009 in one word I would say it was surreal.
It started out like any other year really. Until, whammo...I was suddenly unemployed. That caused a flood of worries, relief, emotions, fears and pure joy. I had the most awesome summer with my kids ever!!! We hung out, we played, we caught up and were basically inseparable. Yes, there were times while being a full-time stay at home mom I could have pulled my hair from my head strand by strand but I didn't and we all made it through.
My mother in law was diagnosed with breast cancer and completed her treatment in 2009. She is cancer free and putting her life back together. She is a very strong person but to watch her go through that was heartbreaking and there were a few close calls that were terrifying.
I started a job search for the first time in 6 years. That was nerve racking and somewhat intimidating!!!! I felt like a statistic...one of the 10.5 percent of Georgians looking for a job.
I initiated and was drill sergeant for the potty training boot camp for Sam. Looking back that 15 days was pure torture....BUT we did it and well before his 3rd birthday!!!! I was beginning to think that yes, I was going to have to pack his pull-ups for kindergarten!!!!
Almost before my very eyes my daughter seemed to become a "big girl" in 2009!!!! She started pre-k and she just seemed to grow up. I can't really explain it but it seemed to happen when she turned 4 in May. I cannot believe she will be in "real" school next Fall! (Sniff sniff!!!!!)
In October I was offered a job...with the same company I worked for before doing work that I enjoy a WHOLE lot more than what I did before. Being a mother of two young children I simply cannot handle the stress of the position I had before. I need a job that I am good at, that I enjoy but that I can leave at the door of the office when I walk out for the day. I have too much on my plate at home to be carrying around professional baggage 24/7. My family deserves for me to be "free" when I am with them!!!!
My family had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas and we are looking forward to a wonderful 2010.
Resolutions:....in no particular order
1.) Have more patience
2.) Cook more
3.) Volunteer more, give more to my community
4.) Take better care of myself so that I can take better care of my family.
5.) Make more time for things I enjoy.
6.) Encourage Jamey to take more time for things he enjoys.
7.) Attend Church on a more regular basis.
8.) Keep my house more organized
9.) Make more time for family...parents, siblings, etc.
10.) Criticize less
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
May I Ramble??????
I haven't blogged in a while. I haven't really had the desire to and really haven't had very much at all to say but for some reason tonight I am in the mood to kind of ramble about whatever comes to mind.
I am beginning to think that there seriously should be a rehab center(s) for people addicted to their cell phones! I think the whole cell phone addiction era has gotten WAY out of hand people! I have a cell phone. I rarely ever leave home without it because I do have two small children and I very sadly lack the ability to change a tire so I have it. I also text occasionally and because in my life sometimes it is easier to text than to have a long drawn out phone conversation but the absolute addiction is beyond my realm of understanding. I also really enjoy an uninterrupted daily conversation to my mom on the way home everyday just to get catch up before I get home where I have no time for idle chit chat. I feel like a very old fuddy duddy but I think "young people" today should maybe put the phone down and I don't know...talk to their friends face to face or stop ignoring the people who are in front of their face to constantly mess with their phones. I honestly think that it is really beginning to affect some people's real people skills. Okay enough about that.
I am so glad that I have recovered from my horrible HORRIBLE sickness that plagued me for like 8 straight days. Tonsillitis and strep is NO FUN FOR ADULTS!!!!! I was so very miserable and began to get so very depressed when I didn't get any better after days....and days....and days!!!! I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people who helped me out with taking care of my children and taking care of me. Jamey was unbelievably patient and kind the whole time and my mom and mother-in-law were a Godsend. I was sick from the Saturday night before Christmas and finally feel 100% as of yesterday. When I finally went to the emergency room because I was a sobby mess who cried on the doctor due to 4 straight days of unbreakable fever and no sleep. Thank goodness I will never see that particular doctor again because I was a mess. If I had known it would take several more days after treatment to get better I would have gone on day 1!
My grandmother-in-law is in town and she has obviously taken me up as a pet project because here is a list of things she has done for me since being in town: She was here all day yesterday and her and her my mother-in-law kept the kids here at our house today while Jamey and I worked....so in two days she has:
-Vacuumed out every vent in my house
-Vacuumed my stairs...all 17 of them...I have only done that like 4 times since being in the house...I usually just give them a little sweep occasionally.
-Cleaned my microwave inside and out
-Cleaned my stove...am I the ONLY person on the planet who didn't know that a stove top on a regular stove lifts up? That was embarrassing. It was NASTY under there....I am assuming that the person who owned the house before us didn't know that lifted either because I don't think all of that mess could have been from us.
-Bought me a new dust mop and one of each of her brands of cleaning supplies.
-Took down and washed my living room curtains.
-Caught up all of my laundry
-Put away all of my laundry
-Encouraged me to take off my sofa cushion covers and wash them (I have been too chicken to do this because if they shrunk or if I just couldn't get them back on we would be sofa and loveseat-less and too poor to buy more...so for the three years we have had that furniture I have been spot cleaning them and dreaming of them being clean.....I feel like I have brand new furniture WOOOO HOOOOO!)
-Washed my dishes twice
-Cleaned my ceiling fans
-Wiped off the tops of each door frame
-Vacuumed under all of my couch cushions
The list above does not include all of the things she directed/ordered Jamey and I to do yesterday as well. She is a work horse and she is 77! I feel bad/embarrassed that she felt my house was in such need of her help but really she just loves to be busy and she loves feeling like she is helping. She never sits still and has a magical way of not making you feel like you are a complete and utter failure as a housekeeper/wife/mother...if it were ANYONE else I would have felt that way but she we just laughed and worked happily together yesterday...I do feel bad that she worked on my house today without my help but I didn't ask her to by no means. She is a one of a kind and when I got home today I felt like the Merry Maids had visited my house!
I am suffering from picture uploading withdrawals!!!!! We STILL do not have our new computer!!!! This old spare is okay for checking e-mail and blogging but I think if I do anything involving pictures it may send it over the edge of existence so I won't. I have so many pictures on my camera that I am dying to view and edit!!!!
Have you ever had a decision to make and you honestly do not know what to do? I have something like that right now and I am stumped!!!! I just cannot seem to come to a decision one way or another. I know what I should decide but will that be best in the long run? The fear of possible regret is quite strong sometimes. Normally I do not have such indecision and fear about such things but in this case I do. This is one of those times when I kind of wish I had someone to say tell me exactly what to do. The pros and cons list that I have are almost perfectly balanced and like I said I am stumped!
Lately I have come to really long for a really close friend. Having your spouse as a friend is wonderful in so many ways but to have a really close girlfriend is such a blessing and I don't feel that I really have that. I do have friends and I am very close to a lot of people but I don't really feel like I have a "sister" friend. I have always been extremely close to my cousin Laura and Jessica and I were very best friends for years and years and still are very close despite the distance if that makes any sense but I don't have a daily best friend. I would love to have a friend who I talk to every day or several times each week and got to see often....another mother of small children would be nice. If you have that you are very lucky and you should nurture and cherish that friendship. I think that some women really don't need that sort of relationship in their lives but I think I do. I guess I should hold best friend auditions. :-)
I better go....I didn't realize it had gotten so late.
Later Gaters!!!!
I am beginning to think that there seriously should be a rehab center(s) for people addicted to their cell phones! I think the whole cell phone addiction era has gotten WAY out of hand people! I have a cell phone. I rarely ever leave home without it because I do have two small children and I very sadly lack the ability to change a tire so I have it. I also text occasionally and because in my life sometimes it is easier to text than to have a long drawn out phone conversation but the absolute addiction is beyond my realm of understanding. I also really enjoy an uninterrupted daily conversation to my mom on the way home everyday just to get catch up before I get home where I have no time for idle chit chat. I feel like a very old fuddy duddy but I think "young people" today should maybe put the phone down and I don't know...talk to their friends face to face or stop ignoring the people who are in front of their face to constantly mess with their phones. I honestly think that it is really beginning to affect some people's real people skills. Okay enough about that.
I am so glad that I have recovered from my horrible HORRIBLE sickness that plagued me for like 8 straight days. Tonsillitis and strep is NO FUN FOR ADULTS!!!!! I was so very miserable and began to get so very depressed when I didn't get any better after days....and days....and days!!!! I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people who helped me out with taking care of my children and taking care of me. Jamey was unbelievably patient and kind the whole time and my mom and mother-in-law were a Godsend. I was sick from the Saturday night before Christmas and finally feel 100% as of yesterday. When I finally went to the emergency room because I was a sobby mess who cried on the doctor due to 4 straight days of unbreakable fever and no sleep. Thank goodness I will never see that particular doctor again because I was a mess. If I had known it would take several more days after treatment to get better I would have gone on day 1!
My grandmother-in-law is in town and she has obviously taken me up as a pet project because here is a list of things she has done for me since being in town: She was here all day yesterday and her and her my mother-in-law kept the kids here at our house today while Jamey and I worked....so in two days she has:
-Vacuumed out every vent in my house
-Vacuumed my stairs...all 17 of them...I have only done that like 4 times since being in the house...I usually just give them a little sweep occasionally.
-Cleaned my microwave inside and out
-Cleaned my stove...am I the ONLY person on the planet who didn't know that a stove top on a regular stove lifts up? That was embarrassing. It was NASTY under there....I am assuming that the person who owned the house before us didn't know that lifted either because I don't think all of that mess could have been from us.
-Bought me a new dust mop and one of each of her brands of cleaning supplies.
-Took down and washed my living room curtains.
-Caught up all of my laundry
-Put away all of my laundry
-Encouraged me to take off my sofa cushion covers and wash them (I have been too chicken to do this because if they shrunk or if I just couldn't get them back on we would be sofa and loveseat-less and too poor to buy more...so for the three years we have had that furniture I have been spot cleaning them and dreaming of them being clean.....I feel like I have brand new furniture WOOOO HOOOOO!)
-Washed my dishes twice
-Cleaned my ceiling fans
-Wiped off the tops of each door frame
-Vacuumed under all of my couch cushions
The list above does not include all of the things she directed/ordered Jamey and I to do yesterday as well. She is a work horse and she is 77! I feel bad/embarrassed that she felt my house was in such need of her help but really she just loves to be busy and she loves feeling like she is helping. She never sits still and has a magical way of not making you feel like you are a complete and utter failure as a housekeeper/wife/mother...if it were ANYONE else I would have felt that way but she we just laughed and worked happily together yesterday...I do feel bad that she worked on my house today without my help but I didn't ask her to by no means. She is a one of a kind and when I got home today I felt like the Merry Maids had visited my house!
I am suffering from picture uploading withdrawals!!!!! We STILL do not have our new computer!!!! This old spare is okay for checking e-mail and blogging but I think if I do anything involving pictures it may send it over the edge of existence so I won't. I have so many pictures on my camera that I am dying to view and edit!!!!
Have you ever had a decision to make and you honestly do not know what to do? I have something like that right now and I am stumped!!!! I just cannot seem to come to a decision one way or another. I know what I should decide but will that be best in the long run? The fear of possible regret is quite strong sometimes. Normally I do not have such indecision and fear about such things but in this case I do. This is one of those times when I kind of wish I had someone to say tell me exactly what to do. The pros and cons list that I have are almost perfectly balanced and like I said I am stumped!
Lately I have come to really long for a really close friend. Having your spouse as a friend is wonderful in so many ways but to have a really close girlfriend is such a blessing and I don't feel that I really have that. I do have friends and I am very close to a lot of people but I don't really feel like I have a "sister" friend. I have always been extremely close to my cousin Laura and Jessica and I were very best friends for years and years and still are very close despite the distance if that makes any sense but I don't have a daily best friend. I would love to have a friend who I talk to every day or several times each week and got to see often....another mother of small children would be nice. If you have that you are very lucky and you should nurture and cherish that friendship. I think that some women really don't need that sort of relationship in their lives but I think I do. I guess I should hold best friend auditions. :-)
I better go....I didn't realize it had gotten so late.
Later Gaters!!!!
Friday, December 11, 2009
A Good Night's Sleep Will Do Me GREAT!!!!
I am so sorry I did my meanie negative vent last night.....I am exhausted!!!! Sam woke up in the middle of the night AGAIN last night so that makes the 4th straight night of interrupted sleep and I have pulled a lot of hours this week so I am T.I.R.E.D. I think the time I spent at home from March - October spoiled me a little. Being back in the life of a working mommy may take a few more months to adjust to. I am somewhat enjoying being back to work and feeling like I am contributing financially to our family again but an adjustment time is probably inevitable.
When I get tired or sick or hormonal (and I am lucky enough to be all three of those at the same time at the moment) that is what I do...I just want to kind of lash out and each and every little thing when I am in that state is like a bur under a saddle for me.
I am looking forward to a good night's sleep tonight....hopefully and I hope to wake up tomorrow morning feeling more like myself. I am praying that the two things that have been making me lose sleep will not happen tonight....1.) I will not be plagued with my frequent coughing fits and 2.) Samuel won't wake up scared saying there is a monster in his room. He gets into such an upset state that there is no calming him down and if I don't bring him downstairs his cries and whimpers would wake Riley up and then I would have an even bigger wee hour of the morning problem on my hands.
I know it is only 9:00 but I am going on to bed. Sacrificing my only time to relax will be worth it tonight.
Later Gaters and Goodnight!!!!
When I get tired or sick or hormonal (and I am lucky enough to be all three of those at the same time at the moment) that is what I do...I just want to kind of lash out and each and every little thing when I am in that state is like a bur under a saddle for me.
I am looking forward to a good night's sleep tonight....hopefully and I hope to wake up tomorrow morning feeling more like myself. I am praying that the two things that have been making me lose sleep will not happen tonight....1.) I will not be plagued with my frequent coughing fits and 2.) Samuel won't wake up scared saying there is a monster in his room. He gets into such an upset state that there is no calming him down and if I don't bring him downstairs his cries and whimpers would wake Riley up and then I would have an even bigger wee hour of the morning problem on my hands.
I know it is only 9:00 but I am going on to bed. Sacrificing my only time to relax will be worth it tonight.
Later Gaters and Goodnight!!!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
SOMETIMES YOU ARE IN THE MOOD TO VENT
Well I have been meaning to blog for a while but every time I start you I only have negative thoughts swirling around in my mind so I decide to keep those little boogers to myself until now because if you can't vent sometimes you may actually blow a gasket so I thought I would just list a few things that are bugging me so that hopefully after posting them here I can let them go like fluffy snowflakes on the icy cold winter breeze......wow...thinking of snow if quite calming for me.
-Being 31 S.U.C.K.S...I feel like I am literally falling apart at the seams...thanks for letting me vent that out to you the other day on the phone Jess!!!!! :-) Like I told Jess it appears that I am 31 and instead of having a boob job or a tummy tuck I am more along the lines of a bladder tack...caused by getting old or having two large babies only 18 months apart with the last one weighing in at 9 lbs 14 oz...yep...that probably did my poor bladder in!!! So next week I have an appointment with my regular doctor for a followup to my appointment last week for a physical which is when they found the UTI and where I brought my leaking problem to their attention, an appointment with my OBGYN to find out once and for all if I am hormonal or just mean and to have my wonderful exam and an appointment with the urologist to discuss my issue...can't wait for the BCT...bladder control test...that will be a dump truck load of fun having them fill my bladder and then have them apply some sort of stimuli resulting in my peeing all over the exam table...that is what I heard takes place anyway. I AM FALLING APART DAILY!!!!
-WHY does Sam always pick the wee hours of the morning to wake up when I am already scheduled to get up at 4:45 for an out of town enrollment???? I left my house at 5:30 this morning after being up with him from 3:00 - 4:00. I enrolled people practically nonstop from 7:00 am - 6:00 pm tonight and I am BEAT. Those early morning snuggles are one of the sweetest things in the world...I guess one day I will really miss those when he is a big boy and too cool to cuddle up with Mommy.
-Why is my daughter such a drama queen at the tender age of 4 1/2????? Some days it is all I can do to deal with the moodiness, the drama, the extremely tender feelings, the meanness, the spitefullness and the temper that that little person possesses!!!! Even with all of those characteristis she is also one of the most caring and tenderhearted children I have ever met...that is what keeps me going I suppose.
- WHY is my husband a horses ass???? Ya'll he really is. Practically every word that he utters is a smart ass remark. He is becoming his grandfather before my very eyes and there is nothing I can do about it. (Jamey's grandmother told me that her husband...the one Jamey obviously inherited his horses assness from made her so angry one day over the subject of a frozen chicken she bought that she whapped him with the chicken and I can TOTALLY relate with that!!! Jamey's grandmother is the one who coined the name Horse's Ass for Jamey and she referred to her husband of 50+ years as that as well. :-) Jamey is not only this way toward me to to EVERYONE he knows. His negativity really wears me out sometimes!!!! I know you guys and I know that there a few of you who are automatically thinking of things to come to his defense so I will give you an example of what I am talking about....I come home from working what...including driving time almost 14 hours today and this is our conversation....Jamey says, "What are you going to cook?" I respond, " I have a frozen bag meal...if you will give the kids a bath I will go ahead and cook." He adds his wonderful remark, "Grrrreat a bag meal. Lord forbid you ever make meat and vegetables. And you ALWAYS buy the garlic stuff!!! You know I hate the garlic and that is all you ever buy." I pause from my task of folding a couch load of clean clothes to just blankly stare at him. If I had had the frozen bag meal in my hand at the time I would have probably whapped him with it!!!! This is a TEENY tiney glimpse and later he proceeded to go back for a second helping of the garlic pasta stuff that he HATES!!!! Please keep in mind that most nights we are a meat and two veggie kind of family for dinner. But he must be smoking crack rock if he thinks I am going to do that on a night like tonight when we are already behind with dinner, baths, story time, teeth brushing and the after the hours I put in. Sometimes I think he just likes to bitch...just to be bitching. I have said before that I would probably be bored out of my mind to be married to someone who is mushy gushy constantly but being a smart ass constantly is quite irritating at times as well. Okay I will remove my fangs from my husbands butt and move on.
-The other day I was thinking of a "why bother" list....things like....why bother have a dog if you are going to keep it on a chain in your yard? Why bother going to a field trip with your child to the Nutcracker, have the best seat in the house and stay glued to your blackberry the WHOLE time without looking up at the show ONCE or sharing in your little girl's excitement about the show? Why bother getting your little girls decked out in perfectly pressed name brand monogrammed clothes with the huge hair bow on their head just to go to preschool where they get covered in glue, paint,markers, glitter and go outside where they get covered in wood chips and grass stains and their $15 hair bow gets tossed to the ground and stomped on? (Some people must truly have more money than sense.) There were more but those are the only ones I can recall at the moment.
-My FIL...aka Couch Camper is coming this weekend....correction....TOMORROW....crap...tomorrw is Friday. It isn't horrible when he comes because he really does do a great job at entertaining the kids while he is here and I get a little more free time than normal but having someone in your house every 4-6 weeks for several days on end gets a little old. The kids do adore him and I shouldn't complain that he wants to see them so often but 24/7 for several days about once a month is a lot.
I better run...I better do a little cleaning since my house guest will be arriving tomorrow afternoon around 5:00...good thing I am taking off 1/2 day tomorrow!!!! I have a date with my mop I guess!
-Being 31 S.U.C.K.S...I feel like I am literally falling apart at the seams...thanks for letting me vent that out to you the other day on the phone Jess!!!!! :-) Like I told Jess it appears that I am 31 and instead of having a boob job or a tummy tuck I am more along the lines of a bladder tack...caused by getting old or having two large babies only 18 months apart with the last one weighing in at 9 lbs 14 oz...yep...that probably did my poor bladder in!!! So next week I have an appointment with my regular doctor for a followup to my appointment last week for a physical which is when they found the UTI and where I brought my leaking problem to their attention, an appointment with my OBGYN to find out once and for all if I am hormonal or just mean and to have my wonderful exam and an appointment with the urologist to discuss my issue...can't wait for the BCT...bladder control test...that will be a dump truck load of fun having them fill my bladder and then have them apply some sort of stimuli resulting in my peeing all over the exam table...that is what I heard takes place anyway. I AM FALLING APART DAILY!!!!
-WHY does Sam always pick the wee hours of the morning to wake up when I am already scheduled to get up at 4:45 for an out of town enrollment???? I left my house at 5:30 this morning after being up with him from 3:00 - 4:00. I enrolled people practically nonstop from 7:00 am - 6:00 pm tonight and I am BEAT. Those early morning snuggles are one of the sweetest things in the world...I guess one day I will really miss those when he is a big boy and too cool to cuddle up with Mommy.
-Why is my daughter such a drama queen at the tender age of 4 1/2????? Some days it is all I can do to deal with the moodiness, the drama, the extremely tender feelings, the meanness, the spitefullness and the temper that that little person possesses!!!! Even with all of those characteristis she is also one of the most caring and tenderhearted children I have ever met...that is what keeps me going I suppose.
- WHY is my husband a horses ass???? Ya'll he really is. Practically every word that he utters is a smart ass remark. He is becoming his grandfather before my very eyes and there is nothing I can do about it. (Jamey's grandmother told me that her husband...the one Jamey obviously inherited his horses assness from made her so angry one day over the subject of a frozen chicken she bought that she whapped him with the chicken and I can TOTALLY relate with that!!! Jamey's grandmother is the one who coined the name Horse's Ass for Jamey and she referred to her husband of 50+ years as that as well. :-) Jamey is not only this way toward me to to EVERYONE he knows. His negativity really wears me out sometimes!!!! I know you guys and I know that there a few of you who are automatically thinking of things to come to his defense so I will give you an example of what I am talking about....I come home from working what...including driving time almost 14 hours today and this is our conversation....Jamey says, "What are you going to cook?" I respond, " I have a frozen bag meal...if you will give the kids a bath I will go ahead and cook." He adds his wonderful remark, "Grrrreat a bag meal. Lord forbid you ever make meat and vegetables. And you ALWAYS buy the garlic stuff!!! You know I hate the garlic and that is all you ever buy." I pause from my task of folding a couch load of clean clothes to just blankly stare at him. If I had had the frozen bag meal in my hand at the time I would have probably whapped him with it!!!! This is a TEENY tiney glimpse and later he proceeded to go back for a second helping of the garlic pasta stuff that he HATES!!!! Please keep in mind that most nights we are a meat and two veggie kind of family for dinner. But he must be smoking crack rock if he thinks I am going to do that on a night like tonight when we are already behind with dinner, baths, story time, teeth brushing and the after the hours I put in. Sometimes I think he just likes to bitch...just to be bitching. I have said before that I would probably be bored out of my mind to be married to someone who is mushy gushy constantly but being a smart ass constantly is quite irritating at times as well. Okay I will remove my fangs from my husbands butt and move on.
-The other day I was thinking of a "why bother" list....things like....why bother have a dog if you are going to keep it on a chain in your yard? Why bother going to a field trip with your child to the Nutcracker, have the best seat in the house and stay glued to your blackberry the WHOLE time without looking up at the show ONCE or sharing in your little girl's excitement about the show? Why bother getting your little girls decked out in perfectly pressed name brand monogrammed clothes with the huge hair bow on their head just to go to preschool where they get covered in glue, paint,markers, glitter and go outside where they get covered in wood chips and grass stains and their $15 hair bow gets tossed to the ground and stomped on? (Some people must truly have more money than sense.) There were more but those are the only ones I can recall at the moment.
-My FIL...aka Couch Camper is coming this weekend....correction....TOMORROW....crap...tomorrw is Friday. It isn't horrible when he comes because he really does do a great job at entertaining the kids while he is here and I get a little more free time than normal but having someone in your house every 4-6 weeks for several days on end gets a little old. The kids do adore him and I shouldn't complain that he wants to see them so often but 24/7 for several days about once a month is a lot.
I better run...I better do a little cleaning since my house guest will be arriving tomorrow afternoon around 5:00...good thing I am taking off 1/2 day tomorrow!!!! I have a date with my mop I guess!
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