I have so many things going on inside my mind and heart now days. I am literally taking on a situation that has nothing directly to do with me and I am worrying myself sick about it. More than worry I am consumed with guilt which is completely and utterly insane because I have not done anything wrong. I am merely a very close bystander but I am feeling all of the emotions as it I were the one making the decisions, carrying out the actions and or the one that the decisons and actions are effecting, etc. Why???? If I were the one in the situation I would understand the worry and loss of sleep over this but I am not the one in it. (This is coming from someone who actually feels embarrassment for people on T.V. shows and I have to look away!)
I just pray that all will end well. This is all just bizarre and in this case I wish I would have been someone left in the blissful shadows of ignorance for a while longer until the whole situation was resolved.
Like I said....other than the strange emotions I am feeling I am fine, my husand and children are fine. The people involved are outside our little foursome.
I do not intend to be mysterious it has helped to type out my thoughts and feelings.
Later Gaters!
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