Okay....so.....34 stinks so far......

November the 16th was great!!!  I was still 33...my work friends spoiled me rotten with gifts, funny cards, Amazon gift cards, flowers, a cupcake, a balloon and lunch....my choice of restaurant.  I was queen for a day.  (Well it would have been perfect had I not accidentally forwarded an email instead of cutting and pasting...thus, accidentally allowing that client contact person see a message I wrote to a fellow coworker that stated that the client (in general) "do not know what they are doing right now because they do not have an HR director"....big fat oops!!!!!  I apologized and all seems well now.  Whew!

Okay, so then I come home Friday night and Jamey doesn't mention anything about birthday plans.  (Let me note here that we do not really exchange gifts anymore.  We normally give a card to each other and let the kids pick us out something simple and maybe go out to dinner...no big hoopla required or expected.)  I was thinking....he is totally going to forget that my birthday is tomorrow....let's see.  I know that was a little evil of me not to just go ahead and say...."Hey...since it is my birthday tomorrow maybe we should....."

Like every other Saturday for the last several months he has to work.  His alarm goes off and I patiently wait for the, "Happy Birthday Honey."  Nope.....didn't happen.  Okay....so it's early, he is sleepy.  No biggie. 

The kids and I get up....we piddle around...I make breakfast and keep my phone close.  No call.  No text.  Ummmm....

I get various other visits, calls and texts but nothing from Jamey.  I let the kids give me the gifts they picked out with their Grandma and I give in and let them talk me into cutting the cake my friend brought me.  We had a big ole time but in the back of my mind I kept thinking.....he has forgotten my birthday AGAIN....you see.....he forgot last year too.  :(

Around 3:00 my phone rings and it is Jamey saying he is on his way home and like always he asked what what we were going to have for dinner.  I sat there for a few seconds debating on cluing him in then or when he got home in person.  I finally did say, "well.....since it's my birthday......"  TOTAL silence.  He replied with, "Oh CRAP....is today the 17th?  I'm sorry Honey."  He got a few whatevers from me before we got off the phone.  WHAT THE CRAP!!!!  MY BIRTHDAY IS A MEEZLY 5 DAYS BEFORE HIS!!!!!  COME ON!

So I could tell by the amount of time it took him that he had stopped somewhere.  He comes into the house and hands me a mushy card and he even wrote a little paragraph inside.  I know this makes me a total B but I did not even want to read it.  I was hurt and ticked!  I did read it but I was hurt and TICKED!

So I acted totally childish for the rest of the afternoon and evening and refused to go out to eat.  I was just sad and I didn't want to have to get ready and get both kids ready to go.  I just wanted to pout.....so I did.

To give you a little background...I have always LOVED my birthday.  Some people can take them or leave them....not me....I love when mine rolls around.  I always have.  Now, this is NOT because a big deal was ever made about my birthday.  I grew up extremely poor and we never had money for things like that.  I have never had an actual birthday party.  I specifically remember several birthday cakes but never a party.  I can remember one year I think I got a pair of new school shoes for my birthday and that was it.  When I was growing up I may or may not have gotten anything for my birthday.  It was just the way it was.  Maybe there are some leftover issues from those days that I still have because I just love people to at least remember. 

I tried to tell myself that Jamey is a guy and guys forget things....he had wonderful birthdays growing up....he could care less about them now....but not me.  It is one day of the year that is mine.  I lived another year...woooo hoooo! 

On Sunday I still had a little leftover hurt feelings and just as I am deciding to feel better I find out that my Father In Law is coming into town on Wednesday and probably will not leave until the next Tuesday.  GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!  I am off all this week so I was REALLY looking forward to being here with the kiddos and enjoying some family time.  Jamey is only off on Thursday.....soooooo....that leaves me here with my FIL Wednesday, Friday and Saturday without Jamey even being here.  GOOD TIMES!  I had it all planned out.....Jamey is off on Thursday....which is also his birthday...which I will NOT forget mind you.  I was going to cook a big breakfast, make a part traditional part non-traditional Thanksgiving meal and bake him a cake.....just the 4 of us!  Normally we are in St. Mary's for Thanksgiving but with Jamey's work schedule we decided to stay home.  My mom and I planned a chili cookoff Thanksgiving feast for the Saturday after Thanksgiving so we are free to enjoy the holiday with just our little family.  I was SO excited!  Larry's call burst my bubble big time.  I know I am being a big ole meanie head but DANG!  He ALWAYS eats with his mom and sister for Thanksgiving.  I really do not mind him being with us on the holiday but I am mourning my whole week of just chilling at home with the kids.  Even though he is family you know that when you have a guest in your house you are never completely at ease.  :(  BUMMER!!!!

So I am not digging the days I have had since turning 34.  I know your hearts are just bleeding for me because I am a whinney baby.  Maybe I will feel better about life tomorrow. 

PS  Oh, and I was "off" today but I had to go in for a little bit this morning....with kids and I got 7-10 work related texts and had to log onto the remote server and check my email twice from home.  NOT HAPPY!  Give me a break 34....come on now!