Can't Sleep...Sick Of Trying To

It is 2:57 a.m. and I cannot sleep...this rarely ever happens to me and it ticks me off when it does. My body and mind are very restless and I can't turn off the random thoughts running through my mind.

Today...oops, yesterday was a GREAT day. Jamey rented a Bobcat and went to work on our beloved overgrown "ditch"that runs through our property. I am so excited because it has been leveled out some and the result is a ton of new and usable space in our yard (after we sow and grow grass that is). I have a great "before" picture but will wait to post the big reveal until tomorrow when I can get a good "after" shot. He worked until a good while after dark so I didn't get a chance to get an after pic. I am so glad the overgrown eyesore is history! This work will also showcase how very large our corner lot is and now that that 1/3 of our lot is usable it will probably increase the value if we were ever interested in selling.

Another random thought bugging me is that my Peace Lily is currently in need of a crash cart and life support. I have never claimed to have a green thumb at all but for some reason I have managed to keep this one particular house plant alive for like 8 years and now it is dying. I am very attached to it because it was one from my Granddaddy's funeral...kind of a living memory of him...crazy I know!!!! I recently re-potted it, Riley named it Spot and it was fine for a like a month and now it is sick. Maybe it is suffering from nutrient overload and needs to go back to being nothing but roots in the other old ugly pot. Come on, 8 years is a long time to have a plant...I feel silly for being attached to a plant but I am...I'm weird.

I am really worried about my MIL and the depression she seems to be slipping into with her cancer/chemo. She shaved her head last week shortly after her second treatment and I have been able to tell a huge difference since then. I think it may be a combination of getting much sicker with this one as well as losing her hair. I have been trying to be as encouraging as I can be...assuring her that her wig looks a lot like her real hair...which it does...the color, the stylish cut of it, the thickness...it is very pretty and for people who haven't seen her in a while and didn't know she had cancer they would never guess it was a wig. I hope she doesn't slip into a deep cloud of depression. That would make it so much worse for her...she really needs to fight to keep her spirits high.

I am thinking of asking my mom to keep the kids one day this week so that I can go shopping for some summer clothes for the kids and myself. Riley and Samuel have little to no shorts and short sleeve tops and I honestly don't think I own a pair of shorts p.e.r.i.o.d. I am more of a capri fan and I need some new ones and maybe a few pairs of shorts for our trip next month. I can get so many cute things for the kids at Walmart and Target....I love the little $3.00 mix and match tops and shorts. I will probably hit a couple of consignment shops for my stuff. I don't have a lot to spend and even if I did if I continue to go to the gym and lose weight hopefully my clothes will just end up boxed up anyway. :-)

I better try to go back to sleep.....

If you don't mind...send a little prayer up for my mother in law. I am praying for her to hold onto her strength and courage during this very difficult time.

Later Gaters!