Have you ever had something happen that was so terrible, yet in an odd way it feels wonderfully liberating at the same time? Well, as odd as that description sounds that is what has happened to me.
I lost my job last Friday, Friday, March 13, 2009 was my last day. How can someone possibly be devastated and relieved at the same time? I don't know how it is possible but that is exactly what I feel right now. My job consumed my life, thoughts and emotions most of the time. Even in the evenings, on weekends and on vacation, my mind was never far away from my job. Stress is a very poisonous thing...it is tends to bubble over into every part of your life...even the precious parts that you try so very hard to protect from it. Trying to keep up, trying to get ahead, trying to do it all really took it's toll on me. There was never a lull time with my job...always neck breaking speed. With that gone I feel like my eyes are open, truly open for the first time in way too long.
I have not been without a job since high school. I had a job in high school, knew it would end after summer vacation was over so I looked for another one. I found another one, stayed there 5 years and when that business started having financial problems I began looking for another one...just in case. That is when I came on board the job I just lost...that was over 6 years ago. I cannot believe that I am unemployed but there are far worse things to be.
I am very scared to be out there with about 10% of other Georgians looking for a job but I am optimistic that I will. I have already updated my resume and am going to the DOL today. The sooner I get my information on file with them the better.
We are truly going to be okay. I am scared but in another way I am excited about the future. I pray that whichever way I take in my fork that I end up happier and more fulfilled than before.
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