Some Days......have you ever put panty hose on a Barbie doll?

Some days I feel like I am simply in autopilot mode....just going through the motions. I really hate that feeling!!!! When I read April's blog about what she would do with 48 hours if she had her choice it made me desperately wish I had 48 hours to myself.

I would say 95% of the time I love every aspect of being a wife and mother but during the other 5% I long for time alone....completely alone. I feel so guilty when I feel that way but I do long to have a little more time to just be Joy....no one following me to the bathroom EVERY time I go, no one spitting slimmy candy in my hand, no one wanting me to put panty hose on a Barbie doll 50 times in a row, no one showing me their hands which are covered in poop because he stuck his hands in his dirty pull up, no one looking at me with a quizical look and ask why I didn't have time to touch the laundry, no one wanting to get romantic when I am dead on my feet and I haven't had a shower all day or shaved my legs in a whole week. Yea...sometimes I just want to be Joy...just for a little while. I think that is why I love the evenings so much but they are so short and even though the kids are asleep I am still wife so that doesn't count.

Okay...I am done wishing and being selfish....for now. :-)